Dear One, I continue this letter to you and want to explain the reason that I am here. Still.
First, I will not take blame for your decision to go wander outside of our marriage; I will take blame for the ugly that I allowed in our marriage.
Remember, I have no idea what the speaker said to us, I couldn’t wait to leave quite honestly. I wanted to get home, sign on to the computer and poke around to see if I could find evidence she was there still. I sat slumped in my chair; lunch break finally over, a couple more hours and I could go home. The annoying chatter of women, the shrill laughter, loud voices was wearing on me. I sat there trying NOT to hear them, asking God for freedom, peace, a sign …. ANYTHING, I also mentioned a quick thank you, to God; the girls were away for the summer working as camp counselors, I believed I needed this alone time. I could not sleep, think, work; eating was a chore, making dinner for them would be impossible. I was barely surviving how I would do this with them around I had no idea.
“I want to say something to you all, it’s important so, please, listen. God has put this on my heart so I’m just going to say it: There is a woman here, you are suffering, suffering deeply from hurt, past, and present; Ladies, she is bitter, I want to pray for her. But listen to me, you MUST let go of that bitterness, you must look at your part in this, you have held on to it for much, too long. I want for you to take a look at your part in this marriage, what you have done to contribute to this besides not forgive, you have done to cause this bitterness.